Catatan MaHe

knapa ya?

back to my old habbit. hurt from side to side. i care too much to people that in fact it could hurt me back. like a boomerang, i throw it away, than it comes back hit my nose until bleeding. what i want? what i need?
apa sih yang gw butuhkan? gw ingin bekerja yang menggunakan inisiatif diri sendiri, without command and directions, karena gw masih belum mampu pay attention into so many directions.. knapa ya?
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